Maybe I'm just a hard case. A case that asks for bumps and knocks.
Wondering how life is able to come up with more crap, when they're already so many edges that can push me off.
I know I have to be strong, but sometimes expectations are just too much.
I know that I'm a nobody. I'm someone who doesn't have any authority, and someone that doesn't have any say in anything.
Whenever people say that I'm valued, I seriously doubt that because I don't sense it.
I don't feel that desire to push forward. And I hate how I have that feeling settled in me. Because I don't want my life to pass away in a hazy memory.
I'm trying hard. I'm doing all that I can to save everything I love. But y'know, sometimes, though you put in much effort, things just don't seem to work no matter what. That just brings you to more frustration and pressure.
I don't know.
Maybe I'm too immature to realize what's happening around me.
But believe me, I'm trying.
I may appear cheerful during such times. But deep inside, when I'm really sad, it's cos no one bothers.
Life may seem fulfilling. But it's really empty.
So don't judge people by their cover.
Like how it may be a really good book, but you pass it over because it looks like shit.
So, having said that, who am I to judge anyone?
I can't even say out all the wrong things about myself. Besides, I'm not even sure who I am.
Wow I'm spilling so much of my inner heartache on this blog.
Sad story over.
OBS in June... looking forward to it. Max.
Because I'm really hoping that OBS can help me to grow.
Because I seriously need to stop crying over things.
Peace out.
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